SPRING BREAK IS HERE!!!
{Okay, that's enough shouting from the virtual roof tops}
If you couldn't tell, winter quarter has ended and it is time for a short break before spring quarter starts.
I first wrote about the beginning of winter quarter here. I chatted about my need to see the importance of grace and not perfection. I needed this to understand true importance of my schooling.
I started the quarter raring to go, waiting to see what the Lord had in store.
Well, He definitely took the importance of grace to a level I wasn't prepared for.
You see, I was fine with accepting grace as long as everything was hunky dory and the way I wanted it. {#what} And of course, this wasn't the way the Lord knew I would learn.
I received an A in my beginning Spanish class this past fall, so naturally I wasn't too worried about my second class out of three that would fulfill my general education requirement. Although, I found out soon into the quarter this class would be my most difficult. My professor, although hilarious and personable, was hard to learn from. Major bummer. So I plugged along, hoping and praying it would get better. Although when my midterm grade came back, I knew I was in for it. Let me just say, I am almost always an A and B student. My midterm grade for Spanish was a 62. {Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.} This hurt {still does slightly}, like a lot. Yet after a little wasteful worrying, I was reminded of my promise of holding myself to a standard of grace. Jesus' grace. Not perfection. Sure I could of studied maybe just a bit more {like on any test}, but I was definitely trying to do my best and I answered each question with my greatest knowledge on the subject. So I was resolved to do all the extra credit I could and bust my butt on any other assignments that were assigned through the rest of the quarter. When it came time to study for my final this week, I definitely put in more time than I did for my midterm and I prayed. Boy, did I pray. I wanted to focus, understand, and complete the material the I had been struggling with for the last 10 weeks. Obviously I can't master it and I sure don't know it that well, but with Jesus anything is possible.
Today was the test and through an almost breakdown mid-way through, prayerful thoughts, and extreme racking of my brain, I survived.
And as I was walking to my car absolutely scared of what the outcome might be, the Lord washed my heart with truth.
In eternity this class will never matter. The fact that you may or may not receive a very low grade on this test and in this class, matters not. I only ask for you to love me and show my love to others around you. I don't care about if you get an A or a degree.
Talk about a calming effect and putting things into perspective!
I mulled this over on the way home and readily let it go.
I have no clue how I did on that final. But I know for a fact, the Lord does and He already knows the outcome of my finishing grade.
I am not perfect, I can not ace every thing. Sometimes{a lot of times}I muddle through things and have to force myself to rest in the grace I have been shown by the only perfect one. I don't do this well. He has to remind me everyday.
So tonight I wait, resting in the grace of not being perfect.
Knowing the Lord has a plan with whatever grade I get.
Excited to enjoy my short break.
And learning that, Grace is greater than Perfection{always}.
p.s. If you didn't know, today is World Down Syndrome day.
Check out this little cutie pie who has just about run off with my heart!
Nico is his name{aka the cutest red head ever.} He is an orphan in Russia, who has a forever family waiting for him and the adoption ban to end.
There are big prayers and dreams being prayed for him, but I have been focusing on simple ones. Such as, asking for a little extra attention to be given to show him how special and lovable he is.
Heavenly father, this morning {Russian Time} I ask that sweet little Ni would be given some extra loves. I don't know how you are going to do it Lord, but until his forever mommy can do it, I ask that someone sees that precious smile and lets him wiggle in and create a little soft spot in their heart.
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